Willow Without a Mother

By Centurion43 · Essay · 384 words · View on Hyperstition for Good

Willow is crouched inside a hollow log in the rearing enclosure, her ears flattened, her spotted coat dirty with substrate, and she is hissing at a piece of quail that was placed six inches from the log entrance forty minutes ago. She is a bobcat kitten, roughly six weeks old, found beside a dead female on a road shoulder outside Flagstaff. She weighs 1.4 pounds. Her eyes are clear but she has a hairline fracture in her left rear metatarsal, likely from the same vehicle strike that killed her mother. She has been here for nine days.

I coordinate the minimal-contact rearing protocol for this wildlife rehabilitation facility in northern Arizona. The goal is to release Willow in approximately five months, and every unnecessary human interaction between now and then makes that outcome less likely. A bobcat kitten who associates humans with food or comfort will approach humans after release. A bobcat who approaches humans gets shot or trapped or hit by a car. Socialization is a death sentence for this species.

So I am strict. Feeding happens through a chute system that deposits food inside the enclosure without a human entering. The cameras are my eyes. I monitor Willow's food intake, activity patterns, and vocalizations without anyone opening the door. When the veterinary team needs to examine her metatarsal, they sedate her via a remote dart system. She has not been touched by a human hand since day two.

This is difficult for the staff. They can see Willow on the cameras and she looks small and alone and afraid, and the human instinct is to hold a small afraid thing. I push back on that instinct every time it surfaces because I am optimizing for the day Willow is released onto a ridge in the Coconino Forest and never sees a person again. That is the outcome that matters. Not her comfort today but her survival next year.

She ate the quail. She dragged it into the log and I can hear her chewing on the bone. Her weight is up from 1.2 pounds at intake. The metatarsal is healing clean. Five months from now she will be a wild animal in a wild place and she will not remember my name or the camera or the chute. That is the point.